Greg and I have been discussing how 2012 is going to be different for us, what are we pursuing what are we NOT going to do anymore. My changes/resolutions are simply said, but tough to pull into action. I’m not looking to run a marathon, although Greg is. I’m looking to reclaim what belongs to me already that I have neglected, ignored, pretended, excused, and turned my back on. I’m getting back to me as a priority, which includes my health, my weight, my happiness. I’ve wasted too much time over extended in areas of my life that frankly aren’t as rewarding when I’m out of balance. My company will still get my very best, it just can’t have all of me. It’s been easy to fall into a work mostly role, it comes easier to me than the physical work that will be required.
I especially want to be more actively involved in my kid’s lives and play – I get too tired, too fast for my liking. My family health history is a disaster and I’m playing the fool’s hand. I’m not a fool, it’s time to get some real work done and stop pretending that my not going to the gym on a regular basis doesn’t matter. The long walk/half jog to the mailbox is not exercise, it’s barely a warm up. I’ve been joking around that my “glory days” are over, so I may not be able to run as fast as I used to or throw a ball from deep center to home, but shoot, how could I expect to not having done it in years? I can’t blame the extra weight on two back to back pregnancies, especially given that the boys are 10 and 11 now – that’s pathetic. So here I am, putting this blog out, probably in a few weeks I’ll half wish I didn’t.
This is going to be a long road back to me, but I have all the right tools at my disposal.
I have family and friends who encourage me.
I have a couple of no nonsense truth sayers in my life, who will tell me straight when I am tossing excuses around (sign up here if you want to be added to the kick Dawn in the tail club)
I have a God who knows who I am, and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
I want to change.
The word “excuse” defined, is not in my character, therefore I have to do something different to achieve the desired results.
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Amen…..so glad your thinking is changing back to you and family!.